I try to explain how I feel and what I think about things, and after years for the most part I think we have a good understanding, but how I want my life to be isn't what I have, and at this point I feel I deserve much of what I want.
I have stuck it out with you, and been there, and put up with so much shit that most men would of run from by now. Granted I'm no picnic either, but I am damn far better than most men, and am more unique than most as well.
I am very empathetic, tender, romantic, caring, highly sexed, erotic and eclectic, and pretty much straight up, decent, and honest.
I know my views on things are not in the standard norm, even for some eccentric people, but that is what makes me me. I am a whole package, and there are things I want.
I need you to be more active and proactive in taking care of your home and Alex and I. I do get angry, but usually only when things are not going as they should. I need a real partner and to feel like everything I do isn't wasted efforts.
I know how I want our sex life to be is a point of contention, and I am sorry for how open my heart is and how I feel, but I do want a more erotic and sexual life than what I have, and I do want to be provided with a bigger bed. The other aspect is to be SuperDad, doing the jobs that need to be done.
Discovering one's truths and being brutally honest about it is what has given me the second wind in our relationship you have recently seen, and in no way do I love you any less or not want you there. The last thing is I want to see you start addressing some things to help us make life work better. Keeping up that housework is something you may have to fight to do, you are out of shape mentally to do that and it has taken some of my energy that way. But we need to be partners, so I myself don't want what I just spoke of for just me, but for how much better it would make us. You have no idea if what I am speaking of would even work, but it would, and unless we try how do we know.
I want my old wife back, and other parts made better, and am willing to work with you, but not carry you like I used to, because it gets too heavy when you drag your feet. I want the rewards from life I deserve, and to be fair I am asking for what I want 20% of the time or less, and right now we have what you want and it doesn't always work. I have valid points, and want to make an unusual but wonderful life for us all, and to live a life with not one regret and to not be denied anymore, or what I know works, and that goes for everything.
